Karma Is A... You Know

Ever think about karma? It's a crazy thing to think about, some force running our lives. Does that mean that all of our decisions are ours, or do we just pay for them? It is really interesting to think about, my life outside of my hands, it's almost refreshing.

I would like to believe in karama. If you do something good you get rewarded, that's really what we all want. Even better sometimes is those who do bad things get punished. And not by our law, but by the law of the universe, something much greater.

Who decides though? Is there some kind of rule book as to what is deserved for what is done? How can that be fair? It's mind-boggleing to think about. Something way greater than us, but not so much as person but a force. Not to get all Star Wars or whatever I just can't think of anything comparable.

Not only karma, but fate. Are we predestined and all of our decions are not truly ours? That almost wants me to sit back and let things happen, but then fate would already know that I was going to do that and nothing would happen. It's a catch 22. You don't have any of your own thoguhts or actions, that's actually pretty depressing.

Either way, I see how it keeps people going. The good people do good things in hopes that karma will take care of them. They are put at ease knowing the bad people will get taken care of whether in this life or the next.

Cha-Cha-Cha-Changes

I guess you could blame the lateness of this blog to senioritis, I would like to anyway. Good time to talk about the future because no matter how much I delay projects and homework, it's comeing full-throtle. And I am freaked out!

I know that I need to grow up, but now that the day is coming I want to regress even more. I have always been more grown up for my age, but now I just want to be a kid again. In a month I will be graduated and forced into adulthood, but I will be kicking and screaming the whole time.

I was trying to go to sleep the other night thinking it was the end of an era. That I will never again be so comfy in my bed in my house again. Sure, I will still have the same bed, but I will be living somewhere different without the security of home. And let me tell you, I HATE change, usually.

Basically, I know that I just need to relax and try to get things done, but that just seems like such an impossible task at this time. Right now I almost wish I could be back in kindergarten coloring, but then I think about all of the crap I had to do to being a senior. All in all I will take that diploma and run, but I'm going to grow up on my own time.